Where Do I Stand?

 They're a family and you're an outsider and this is something you'll be made to feel again and again. They stand together through thick and thin, they have the ugliest arguments and yet they bounce back because they are a family. But you, you're an outsider because you weren't born into their family. You're not their blood. No matter how much your husband supports you or takes your side, he'll still be with his family, always.  

But doesn't that make you wonder where you stand in that particular desi joint family? They'll ridicule you, bash you, call you pathetic names, even those that make you feel naked and yet your husband will sit with them, laugh with them and provide for them, as a good son and brother. He is responsible to do so but where will it leave you? Do you want to socialize with people who bash you with the ugliest of vocabulary that could exist? Do you want to be around people who call you out in a gathering only to ensure their superiority is established? Would you want to associate or be in close proximity of such toxic people whose only motive in life is to show you down? And when your answer is a blunt no to all this, how would you feel about the man who is responsible for bringing you in that house and being your shield.

I'm in no way saying its wrong but its not right either. Or maybe I don't find it to be right. How can you trust a man who'll love and laugh with people who ridicule you? How will you be close to him ? And if you cannot be close to him, what is the purpose of you being there in that house in the first place? Are just a full time maid he brought in for himself? Are you just there to bear his children? Where are you, yourself? What is your identity? Where do you stand? Where do I stand?