I'm Just Tired

 I'm just tired. I've been tired for a while now. The only thing is that in this rat race of life, I feel like I've left myself behind while trying to catch up with everyone and everything. I try to maintain a balance at home. I try to fulfill every need that is connected to me, I try to cater to home and family but still, it is never enough. I feel so overwhelmed at times. I'm tired of being needed all the time. Even the holidays require me to work. 

Why?

Why can't I just be there, sit on the sofa and watch the news. Why can't I just laze around, not wanting to do anything because its my day off? Why don't I have a day off? Ever since I've been married, there has been not a single day I've not been on duty. There hasn't been a single day I'm not needed. Why? 

Are we raising our daughters to be slaves? Are we investing our time and values into our daughters just so that they'd grow up, ready to serve some desi spoiled men who would sit on their asses all day, commanding.

I do accept that these men work outside the house, bringing in the bread and money but even we don't sit on our rumps all day, doing nothing. The work is equal, the responsibilities equal, even more for the women who have an entire family to look after, then why isn't the division of me-time equal? Why can men just walk out when tired, hang out with their friends and just turn off their switches when needed and women expected to be available at all times?

The thought tires me. I'm physically, mentally and emotionally drained and I just can't seem to be helping myself. 

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